I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Over this past year I've lost tons of my friends and I fucking hate my stepdad, And my mom doesn't even care. Like a few months ago he threw me down the stairs and then 2 seconds later apologizes to me and my mom just looks right through it. And today, They just randomly sent me down to my room and then just left with my sister to go swimming without me. And they didn't even mention one thing about me coming. Im fucking pissed that they always fucking spoil my little sister and shit! Im fucking done. And me and him are suppose to go to Hawaii in December but since I've been "Such a bad kid" He always is black mailing me with it and is saying shit like your not going, and then the next day making me do tons of shit just so i can go. I already have about 200 dollars saved up to buy shit and Im just done. When they get home im not going to be here. Im going to take my fucking money and go. I've already thought about committing suicide but I think otherwise. I honestly don't know what to do. Im crying writing this and It seems fucking stupid that the only people that will listen to me are fucking randoms one the internet. And it's pretty fucking sad that These people that i don't even know care about me more than my fucking stepdad. I just don't know what to do...