hi, i think we same case the reason why i change my life the only difference is in your case its your grandmom in me my mother, it really change my life and i can't that the changes in me is for better. the time she died right that moment my life change i don't have shoulder to lean on i have to face my problem alone even though i still have my father and my siblings. my mother is my best friend my counselor and everything. yup you're right life is so short and precious. thanks for your time reading my message.