Alright, I honestly don't know where to begin with this but here goes nothing. Hopefully it isn't too long. About ~7-8 months ago, I went to the doctor and I found out there was a tumor in my left lung. It hit me hard as fuck. But the moron I was, I started using drugs again because I fell into a state of depression and sadness. I mean, I was only 20 at the time and I didn't expect a fucking tumor, a cancerous one at that to be in me. It sucked. I didn't believe it for a week or two but then I realized that I'd be living with for a long ass time. Then a month down the road, my doctor mentioned this treatment where it'd nude the tumor in me. I didn't have a choice but to try it. Nothing was left. I didn't care about the cost (57,000$) nor about the side effects. I began coughing blood throughout the treatment, etc etc... it was bad. I almost thought of committing suicide. I couldn't handle it. I started smoking weed, doing LSD, whatever it took to take my mind off of the pain. Then a couple of months back (03/18/2015) I met my future girlfriend. She knew nothing about me, nothing about my tumor, my drug use, nothing. Slowly but surely, I began to open up to her about. I was scared, I was really scared. Thought she'd walk out but she didn't. She stuck by my side. Helped me through everything. Now, a couple weeks back, I went to my last doctor visit. I can proudly say, the tumor is fucking gone. I'm glad I didn't give up because I was sure as hell close to it. I almost took my life. If it wasn't for my girlfriend, I wouldn't be here. I never had suicide thoughts until a few months back when the pain was unbearable but a lot of you, hell 99% won't go through the pain I went through. But shit, I'm glad and I didn't and I've never been so happy in my life because everything seems to be falling into place for me.
Now, a couple days back (06/05/2015), my moms surgery got confirmed for tomorrow (06/08/2015). Her health has slowly been deteriorating and I'm honestly scared. I don't know why she is getting the surgery because she won't tell me but I'm scared. I honestly hope everything gets better for the most important person in my life. Please keep her in your prayers.
I just had to let that all out. Thanks for reading
Now, a couple days back (06/05/2015), my moms surgery got confirmed for tomorrow (06/08/2015). Her health has slowly been deteriorating and I'm honestly scared. I don't know why she is getting the surgery because she won't tell me but I'm scared. I honestly hope everything gets better for the most important person in my life. Please keep her in your prayers.
I just had to let that all out. Thanks for reading
