Bullshit I've never felt the pain you're feeling right now. I can guarantee my life that's a lie, bro. You just said your dad likes you, so that's not your whole family. My mother told me I was also a mistake (7 & 5 year age gap between my siblings), when you try to be positive it means you're trying to become happy, which means that you still want to be a positive person. It's not impossible. If you keep saying bye to everyone on this thread where's that going to get you? Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, I'm sure you've heard that plenty of times. I always used hotlines which helped me insanely, I can link some to you if you like. Cutting yourself is a bad option. When I used to do it, I stopped because my family discovered my scars. I then put an elastic band around my wrist and whenever I felt like doing it I just pulled really far and let go. Try it. It's so much better then harming yourself in that way.