I know most of you wont care, half you don't have a reason to give a shit, but i desperately need to get this off my chest.
Recently I have been feeling lonely, only time I don't is when I am with my girlfriend, and she lives 20 miles away and we have no way to get to each other, we have been going out for nearly a year now, we spend a lot of time with each other during school, and at weekends. The lonelyness is slowly starting to rip me apart from the inside, I've tried multiple councilers and all that led to was some un-needed causes of concern about my mental health, when I saw a doctor he tried to put me on anti-depressants but I refused them.
Recently I've been seeing things, the scars up my arm seem to be constantly bleeding when they are not, I keep getting visions from when I used to cut myself and they are starting to haunt me. I keep hearing horrible screams too and voices in my head.
I'm slowly starting to loose my will to live, and I do not know what to do any more.
Recently I have been feeling lonely, only time I don't is when I am with my girlfriend, and she lives 20 miles away and we have no way to get to each other, we have been going out for nearly a year now, we spend a lot of time with each other during school, and at weekends. The lonelyness is slowly starting to rip me apart from the inside, I've tried multiple councilers and all that led to was some un-needed causes of concern about my mental health, when I saw a doctor he tried to put me on anti-depressants but I refused them.
Recently I've been seeing things, the scars up my arm seem to be constantly bleeding when they are not, I keep getting visions from when I used to cut myself and they are starting to haunt me. I keep hearing horrible screams too and voices in my head.
I'm slowly starting to loose my will to live, and I do not know what to do any more.