If i had the balls id kill myself no doubt and no regret. Im just. Im scared of what id be leaving behind if anything. If i wasnt scared id be dead by now but i am scared and thats why im still breathing. Some days are just so fucking depressing i just wanna give up. Thinking about my future and school is just so stressful. Im just. Im scared of life. Im scared of the fact im growing up and im scared of killing myself. Sorry to sound like a "pussy" or a "fag" or whatever but i really really needed to get some of my emotions out. sorry