This girl who i'm not going to say her name.. who i've LOVED with all my heart since i met her a year ago.. has just broken my heart in such an unbelievable way.. she's the first girl who i've completely loved, and i've never felt this way for any other chick.. she was amazing! and after we broke up on new years (get a load of this reason) "because she wanted to do dumb shit (like get in the car of a very drunk boy racers car) and not have to worry about a boyfriend", but after we broke up i still had immense feelings for her.. and she tried killing herself when she realized what she had done.. she was so sorry and she said she still loved me very much.. so we just went on still in a "it's complicated" kinda relationship for many more months.. until things started getting worse.. and then i started catching her out on lies, like how i didn't want her to go over to a guy called angus's house, just them two alone, and get high together.. she has never been high and neither have i, so i wanted us to try it for the first time together... turns out she lied to me when she said she didn't go to his place and just went home instead.. she did go. And now months later i've found the most hurtful thing i could ever imagine.. she always sent me nudes and sexy pics and shit like that.. and promised me she only sent them to me and no one else, and that she loved me AND ONLY me, but one night we had a fight.. she blocked me.. i talked to angus about why he wanted her at his house again (what the argument was about) and he said to tell her he had a girlfriend now... he also mentioned she had been sending him pics.. pics that she promised were for me only.. he described one pic to me perfectly.. and my heart sank.. she's been lying to me.. he also said she'd been saying things to him like "Come here so i can suck your dick" and "cum in my mouth" or "come here and lick my pussy" all that kind of stuff... so i messaged her blind with rage and sadness to see her reply with this... "Tbh, we were never going to meet. So why not talk to someone els? Turns out he only wanted sex anyways, so when he ditched me I didn't really care? But even if me and you were still talking it wasn't going to go anywhere was it. I only spoke to Angus, no one els. But yeah doesn't matter, Angus is a cunt, and your a dick, whatever, I'm not actually a slut because I haven't had sex with anyone so I'm a virgin. The word your looking for wouldn't be whore either, i guess I was just leading you on, me and you were just friends with benefits. But yeh I don't talk to any guy now. Only spoke to you two, but yeah got a boyfriend now and I'm loyal to him and don't talk to any other guy. So yeh you two can fuck off and I really don't care aye. Your just a stranger who made me try commit suicide for wanting to leave me sooo who gives a fuck if I was talking to someone els(Angus) cause you wanted to leave me anyways. So whatever. Not one fuck given. Bye" My hearts broken completely after i skyped her and she didn't even act like she cared what she had done to me... i cried and i cried begging her to say it was all one sick joke to make me say sorry, or that she was lying.. but she wasn't.. I'm so completely depressed right now.. i feel like just killing myself.. I know there's shit like "There's plenty of fish in the sea" but i can't imagine that right now.. please someone help me..
