Depression

[Dying]

So basically, I have sort of a huge depression problem. I have attempted suicide a few times, now a lot of you may think what a little bitch, well from past experiences I told some people, and they told me to grow up and shit. It's really not all that easy. Now you're probably saying why did I make this thread, I just think it clears my mind for me to vent, but since most of the people that listen are either asleep or at school meaning they live in a total different time zone as me. 

Now, all of the huge problems, so a long time ago I have seen my brothers friend get murdered a few feet away because I used to live in the ghetto, and now I have PTSD, then my Father left, and really messed our family up, right now I am 15, and he left when I was 6. Me and my mom struggled and my mom even had her share if depression... Which kept making me think it was my fault. I got counseling, and it never helped at all. I got pills and they worked for about a year, 
Then my friend, basically brother, the one I told everything to, about a year ago committed suicide, and it really hurt, I then keep thinking again and again that it was my fault, I never asked how he really felt, because he seemed so happy. That's where I believe the saying 'Sonetimes the happiest people, are the saddest.'
All I'm doing in this thread is venting all of this, if you actually read it, thank you. 

@toshiba

 

[Random]

That really is rough mate. I've dealt with losing Family, It's hard. Try to hang on Buddy!

 

[Dying]

That really is rough mate. I've dealt with losing Family, It's hard. Try to hang on Buddy!

Thank you dude, and I try, it's really tough to move on too.

 

[Cann!bal]

Pain is inevitable, however, suffering is optional. Recognize your pain as a primal awareness which demands your initiative to transcend your undesirable circumstances. Persist through your anxiety and analyze the works and ramifications which support the architecture of your depression, utilizing your discomfort for deconstruction. Every worldly desire you harbor, lies on the other side of fear.

 

[Dying]

Pain is inevitable, however, suffering is optional. Recognize your pain as a primal awareness which demands your initiative to transcend your undesirable circumstances. Persist through your anxiety and analyze the works and ramifications which support the architecture of your depression, utilizing your discomfort for deconstruction. Every worldly desire you harbor, lies on the other side of fear.

Thank you for posting, and I see what you're saying, I have been looking into getting more counseling just to see, so that I could get a sense of hope for me.

 

[One]

You're 15. Instead of trying to convince yourself and everyone else that you have problems just enjoy life. Your teenage years are meant to be spent exploring life and it's many awesome opportunities. And yet all you do is sit on the computer and try to tell people that you have mental problems. Your brothers friend wouldn't want you to live like this. In fact if he was here he'd probably be outside enjoying himself. There's millions of people who would kill to be you.

 

[Dying]

You're 15. Instead of trying to convince yourself and everyone else that you have problems just enjoy life. Your teenage years are meant to be spent exploring life and it's many awesome opportunities. And yet all you do is sit on the computer and try to tell people that you have mental problems. Your brothers friend wouldn't want you to live like this. In fact if he was here he'd probably be outside enjoying himself. There's millions of people who would kill to be you.

Not trying to start anything but I don't sit on my computer all day and convince people I have mental problems. I said clearly that I'm just venting, not asking for opinions. 

 

[One]

Not trying to start anything but I don't sit on my computer all day and convince people I have mental problems. I said clearly that I'm just venting, not asking for opinions. 

Then explain this quote :" I have sort of a huge depression problem. I have attempted suicide a few times" .  That screams attention. And you even used the words "big problems" which really aren't big at all. Just some low points in life that everybody goes through at some point. 

 

[Jamil]

Pain is inevitable, however, suffering is optional. Recognize your pain as a primal awareness which demands your initiative to transcend your undesirable circumstances. Persist through your anxiety and analyze the works and ramifications which support the architecture of your depression, utilizing your discomfort for deconstruction. Every worldly desire you harbor, lies on the other side of fear.

I think @random can agree with this.

 

[Psyche]

Dude i feel you. If you need someone to talk to hit me up.

 

[BasedGod]

@one ur kinda being insensitive...

@Misery I understand some of what you've gone through (multiple deaths of loved ones though not in front of my eyes) I personally feel suicide isn't an answer and it's like a pussy way out. It's not your fault your friend ended it. Just try to fill your life with the good
things that matter. Always look at the bright side. Be thankful for what u have. You don't need to dwell on the past or the negatives your whole life. Everyone goes through something really shitty here and there. That is just life, and you need to be able to be strong.

 

[One]

@one ur kinda being insensitive...

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 I'm not being insensitive. And you don't want to start with me. 

 

[Dying]

@one ur kinda being insensitive...

@Misery I understand some of what you've gone through (multiple deaths of loved ones though not in front of my eyes) I personally feel suicide isn't an answer and it's like a pussy way out. It's not your fault your friend ended it.  Just try to fill your life with the good
things that matter. Always look at the bright side. Be thankful for what u have. You don't need to dwell on the past or the negatives your whole life. Everyone goes through something really shitty here and there. That is just life, and you need to be able to be strong.

Thanks bro, and I understand and being strong is really the only thing to get me through this. 
I do think a lot and dwell on the negative things in my life...

 

[Ellis]

So basically, I have sort of a huge depression problem. I have attempted suicide a few times, now a lot of you may think what a little bitch, well from past experiences I told some people, and they told me to grow up and shit. It's really not all that easy. Now you're probably saying why did I make this thread, I just think it clears my mind for me to vent, but since most of the people that listen are either asleep or at school meaning they live in a total different time zone as me. 

Now, all of the huge problems, so a long time ago I have seen my brothers friend get murdered a few feet away because I used to live in the ghetto, and now I have PTSD, then my Father left, and really messed our family up, right now I am 15, and he left when I was 6. Me and my mom struggled and my mom even had her share if depression... Which kept making me think it was my fault. I got counseling, and it never helped at all. I got pills and they worked for about a year, 
Then my friend, basically brother, the one I told everything to, about a year ago committed suicide, and it really hurt, I then keep thinking again and again that it was my fault, I never asked how he really felt, because he seemed so happy. That's where I believe the saying 'Sonetimes the happiest people, are the saddest.'
All I'm doing in this thread is venting all of this, if you actually read it, thank you. 

Things get better over time, and tbh from what you have said it don't sound to me like any of it was your fault, its tough but keep going mate

 

[Sakura]

Hit me up anytime you need to vent @Misery , I feel for you. 
There is never a reason to end your life, think about the possibilities you'd be missing out on. 
You're only 15 and you have a whole life ahead of you. Don't give up

 

[Dying]

Hit me up anytime you need to vent @Misery , I feel for you. 
There is never a reason to end your life, think about the possibilities you'd be missing out on. 
You're only 15 and you have a whole life ahead of you. Don't give up

Thank you a lot dude I really appreciate it. Do you have a Kik? Mine is oty  

 

[Sakura]

Thank you a lot dude I really appreciate it. Do you have a Kik? Mine is oty  

Yep, hit me up my Kik is ynh, it's in my sig.

 

[Shinigami]

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