me
life story
Ever since i was little i've struggled with depression and suicide issues, including trying to kill myself by slitting my wrists when i was 12 years old.
It went away a while but i now have it back, bad. i also have some other disorders that i'll be talking about later.
I've tried to kill myself many times, all of which failed. I've been in mental hospitals around where i live, even some people i've talked to say i'm "Uncurable"
I've tried talking to people, but i anger them to the point they've said "you should just kill yourself" only friend i have is @Dusk and he may not know it, but he's literally been keeping me alive. [font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]He's literally the only person i can talk to about this shit, probably because he lived it. I'd like to talk about a few other disorders i have[/font]
Emetophobia: The intense fear of throwing up. or feeling like you're going to throw up for no reason.
OC I have OCD wicked bad, to the point i scream and break shit when i don't have things neat, which causes another chain reaction
ADH I've had this bad ever since i was a kid. i can't sit still. i can't do anything regularly.
Turrets: I had a bad case of turrets when i was little, to the point where i was screaming cuss words at happy events such as fairs.
it's embarrassed me my whole life and carried with the kids at school from 1st grade to 10th grade (grade i'm in now)
i currently take about 7 pills a day for all this stuff, and i still feel down. it fucking sucks.
i can't find anything besides this forum to make me happy, and tonight I'm really thinking about ending my life.
My family says i'm selfish and obnoxious when i say this sort of stuff. I fucking hate them and fight with them evert
if anyone knows about any of this stuff, please comment below. i'd be happy to try to help other people with there struggles
life story
Ever since i was little i've struggled with depression and suicide issues, including trying to kill myself by slitting my wrists when i was 12 years old.
It went away a while but i now have it back, bad. i also have some other disorders that i'll be talking about later.
I've tried to kill myself many times, all of which failed. I've been in mental hospitals around where i live, even some people i've talked to say i'm "Uncurable"
I've tried talking to people, but i anger them to the point they've said "you should just kill yourself" only friend i have is @Dusk and he may not know it, but he's literally been keeping me alive. [font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]He's literally the only person i can talk to about this shit, probably because he lived it. I'd like to talk about a few other disorders i have[/font]
Emetophobia: The intense fear of throwing up. or feeling like you're going to throw up for no reason.
OC I have OCD wicked bad, to the point i scream and break shit when i don't have things neat, which causes another chain reaction
ADH I've had this bad ever since i was a kid. i can't sit still. i can't do anything regularly.
Turrets: I had a bad case of turrets when i was little, to the point where i was screaming cuss words at happy events such as fairs.
it's embarrassed me my whole life and carried with the kids at school from 1st grade to 10th grade (grade i'm in now)
i currently take about 7 pills a day for all this stuff, and i still feel down. it fucking sucks.
i can't find anything besides this forum to make me happy, and tonight I'm really thinking about ending my life.
My family says i'm selfish and obnoxious when i say this sort of stuff. I fucking hate them and fight with them evert
if anyone knows about any of this stuff, please comment below. i'd be happy to try to help other people with there struggles