I really don't know how to explain myself, I came to realization that most of the kids party and do stupid shit and to me this is wasting their lives. I basically keep to myself and don't socialize because I don't wanna end up following someone elses footprints where I want to be a high achiever and successful in life. On the other hand I lost self confidence and it's hard to open to people this is because of what happened in my life, real personal. It does kind of suck to not socialize but I think I can achieve things way quicker without being distracted. Lastly, if I do talk to people it's hard for me to open up to them..people in general. When I feel more comfortable I can easily open up and be myself which includes me to be more outgoing.