@Sin, I really feel for you, and I hope you get through all of this. Just remember, we as a community will have your back, and try to support you in any way. Please don't do anything like taking pills, you're life is valuable, as well as everyone else. You have gone through a lot of shit, and in return, a lot of good and positive will happen in your life. I wish all the best to you, and your family, and hopefully when they recover, you can all reunite, and gradually take steps to grow back.
Take care once again, add my skype: Chrome
I'll always be here for you.