The Definition of Forever Alone

I'm not the eyeopener my peers are, I'm just your average person really. It just seems like there is some sort of avoidance thing I have over me where it's at the point where I feel like a 30 year old on his mid-life crisis, fearing his day of social irrelevance.

I'm likable I guess but I suppose maybe I'm odd in my circumstance, I like to use words, describe why I'm in a moment of greatness, though I jump to topics.

I don't know, it's just how highschool works, the funny thing is, I'm not going to see most of these people I see in highschool in the future so why should I care right? I'm a bit conflicted, Should I continue to attempt to talk to people or just, I don't know.... drift? I mean I walked that road a long time and this socializing thing is a bit new to me.

I just don't know

Wait for college or the real world to make friends. I literally talk to 1% of the people I went to highschool with.

How old are you?

15, doing prison time basically.

People say that you won't really talk to your high school friends, and their mostly right. But not socializing creates patterns to avoid contact with people at all costs. I say you still attempt to socialize, as this will help you a lot more than shunning yourself.

I would suggest that you fuck around in high school. College is way better because people are more mature and respectful but there is plenty of other factors as well. If you're in early high school make a few friends so you don't feel alone because that feeling sucks. Everyone knows that but I think you should have a few close friends but then again it's totally up to you man.

Don't fuck around obsessively as that will lead to bad habits. I suggest finding a group of friends that you can make your acquaintances. Make a strong band of friends together. That's what I did and it just grew from there.