I'm not going to talk you out of it. None of us chose to be here, or chose anything about ourselves. We all have the right to end our own pain. I think about commiting suicide every single day. If I had no family I would have done it by now.
How dare I tell you what to do with yourself? I feel and have felt the deepest misery, the deepest sorrow and the greatest self hatred. On one level or another, I know how you feel.
May I ask, how you plan on doing it?