Well, there's really no place for me to start so this might be a bit scrambled.
A few years ago I lost my girlfriend of two years in a car accident which completely destroyed me, I had thoughts of suicide, became depressed, everything started to go wrong, I'd lost another one of my friend a year or two before in a plane crash on the same day which didn't help anything.
Ever since then I started smoking and drinking, basically shortening my life and not caring about anything.. I don''t do badly in school, but outside of school I feel like I'm wrecking my life with all these drugs.
A few days ago I left my girlfriend due to the fact that she was so possessive and I couldn't talk to any other girl or sit with another girl without getting into a fight that threatened out relationship so I ended it before it got worse. I can't stand relationships because this or some other stupid reason makes it worse and I always end up feeling how I did when my previous girlfriend passed from the accident.
Lately I've been flirting with a girl who seems to like me but has told me that she can't see any relationship she has lasting for more than a year, and for once this girl actually understands me. We've literally been doing everything together, smoking, drinking and pretty much every minute we can we're together.
I suppose my main problem is that I can't figure out if I want to ask her somewhere or not, she's in a relationship at the moment but she doesn't want it to go anywhere, he's a major alcoholic and she doesn't even like him anymore, she's using him as a back-up since she's uncomfortable with herself.
She's said jokingly that she wants to go to prom and that she wants to be in a relationship, the first which I have found to be true, I just don't want to get too attached and then the relationship completely fails.
Should I take the risk of getting hurt and date her or should I just let it pass? It's not the first time I've had feelings for her, but it won't be the first time I've been hurt if the relationship does collapse.
Any advice would be appreciated, thanks.
tl;dr should i date her or not, i dont like life.
A few years ago I lost my girlfriend of two years in a car accident which completely destroyed me, I had thoughts of suicide, became depressed, everything started to go wrong, I'd lost another one of my friend a year or two before in a plane crash on the same day which didn't help anything.
Ever since then I started smoking and drinking, basically shortening my life and not caring about anything.. I don''t do badly in school, but outside of school I feel like I'm wrecking my life with all these drugs.
A few days ago I left my girlfriend due to the fact that she was so possessive and I couldn't talk to any other girl or sit with another girl without getting into a fight that threatened out relationship so I ended it before it got worse. I can't stand relationships because this or some other stupid reason makes it worse and I always end up feeling how I did when my previous girlfriend passed from the accident.
Lately I've been flirting with a girl who seems to like me but has told me that she can't see any relationship she has lasting for more than a year, and for once this girl actually understands me. We've literally been doing everything together, smoking, drinking and pretty much every minute we can we're together.
I suppose my main problem is that I can't figure out if I want to ask her somewhere or not, she's in a relationship at the moment but she doesn't want it to go anywhere, he's a major alcoholic and she doesn't even like him anymore, she's using him as a back-up since she's uncomfortable with herself.
She's said jokingly that she wants to go to prom and that she wants to be in a relationship, the first which I have found to be true, I just don't want to get too attached and then the relationship completely fails.
Should I take the risk of getting hurt and date her or should I just let it pass? It's not the first time I've had feelings for her, but it won't be the first time I've been hurt if the relationship does collapse.
Any advice would be appreciated, thanks.
tl;dr should i date her or not, i dont like life.