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Hey guys, nearly 3 AM here...just had a heart-to-heart with my older sister (She's always been the one to talk to me about life) but I need your guy's opinions as well...

When I was 12 or 13, I looked at my older brother as any younger brother would... a model, a role model. My brother wasn't smart, he didn't graduate from a High School, he never got his diploma, all he has is a GED, He's 20 years old this September and has no job, and possibly no future. I'm 17 years old and I'm going down the same road as him, even worse. I go to the same ALTERNATIVE high school as he did, I'm not passing all my classes, and if I continue down this road I'll be nothing but a homeless stoner.

I'm talking with my high school principle tomorrow to see if it's possible for me to come back and get my life fixed, but until then...I have to live with my parents being so disappointed in me to the point where they threaten to kick me out...the worst part is, I don't learn from my mistakes, I abuse my parent's trust, in fact - they barely trust me at all...I steal beer and cigarettes from my dad....I stole money from my mom a couple times and I just don't learn. I'm a huge fuck up in their eyes.

I've always wanted to get into computers, I love computers, fixing them, using them, building them etc etc. But I will never have a successful job like that going down the road I am...how do I start getting my life on track?

I have no ideas on how even start.
 
No matter what you've done or haven't done to your parents or their trust... they're your parents. They will love you unconditionally. Trust is an easy thing to break & sometimes nearly impossible to gain back. My words of wisdom would be to make sure you talk to your principal, show initiative in school. If you can't, sign up for a class involving Computers. That way it'd be easy for you. Showing initiative & caring about your grades & what you're learning will help show your parents you're maturing & you're trying to give yourself a life outside of their home. I was down that road too. But my problem wasn't with school. It was with theft. I had stolen nearly 40 things from 13 years old to 17 years old & was busted for 90% of the thefts. My parents had no trust in me whatsoever. But I just stopped & told myself: "What the fuck are you doing?" "Why are you doing this?" & somehow I had miraculously stopped without the help of my parents or counseling or therapy or anything besides myself showing enough willpower that I want to go somewhere in life, not end up in jail or end up living in their basement until I'm 40. Now I'm 21 & I live in my own apartment & have never stolen something since then. I guess what I'm saying is just to not give up & keep telling yourself you want to get some kind of Major in Computers. Maybe that alone, will convince you to only go forward, not backward. I hope this helped. Even the slightest bit. I've been down that road. I'm aware I don't know you & you don't know me, but I wish you the best man. Keep your head up.
 
Can't really ask for help until you help yourself.
I fucked up my first 3 years in high school and took 17 classes my senior year for grade forgiveness.
Online classes, normal classes, and credit lab.
Shit is hard, but you have to actually cut the bullshit and do it.
If summer school is an option, do that shit.
Give the weed a break so you can focus, even.
Proving someone wrong is the best feeling in the world, and you will never be satisfied with a "GED".

How much time left in school do you have to go before you graduate?
Are there computer classes available? take them. Easy grade for something you enjoy and have a lot of interest in.
Ask your principle how many credits you need to graduate and work something out with your counselor.
Don't just give up because your brother did. You aren't going to turn out like that if you actually try; promise.
Keep us posted after that meeting tomorrow, GL op.
(And if you ever need help with shit you don't understand I was a tutor for a long time )

Edit: Trap and I just posted at same time and I agree in his post 10/10.
 
Thank you @"Glitter Milk" and @"Trap". I will definitely keep you guys posted on what happens when I talk to my principle and what not. Sadly, there are no computer courses available in my High School...however, I know I can get through it, I just have to stop being an idiot. And to answer your questions Glitter, I am going into my Junior year after this summer. (I am a Sophomore currently.)
 

Yeah, I'd like to know how it goes. That's a real bummer. My high school had graphic design classes. But that was it. Maybe you'll get accepted into a nice college. If not, at least a nice community college where you can take all sorts of computer related courses. Only study what you take keen interest in. I believe you can get through it. Only if you believe you can.
 
@Mystical Bill oh well pft! You have plenty of time but you really need to cut that bullshit out.
My little brother was having a lot of issues throughout HS and just wasn't doing anything about it. I have a 0 tolerance for that kind of shit. in 2 years you will walk -___-

At least you understand the decisions you're making atm are wrong, and I'm glad you've got the push to do something about it.
 

Thank you again. I am sitting in front of my computer balling my eyes out right now lol, for the first time I'm really thinking about how my life is going down the drain, how much I've disappointed everyone who had believed in me.
 
Mystical Bill said:
Thank you again. I am sitting in front of my computer balling my eyes out right now lol, for the first time I'm really thinking about how my life is going down the drain, how much I've disappointed everyone who had believed in me.
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Any time you need somebody to talk too, feel free to Kik me or something. I know that exact feeling you're having right now. It sucks. I still, to this day, think back at how much I had let my parents down. But then I remember that I've changed a lot since then. So you just need to take a step in the right track, bro. Don't follow in anyone else's footsteps. Just do you. That's it.
 

Thanks man Really opening my eyes right now, hoping to make something of my life. I will let you know how it goes.
 


Extremely long post inbound, read at your own concern.

This sounds almost exactly like me. It's uncanny.
I'm also 17, recently got expelled from High School during about the last 2 weeks of school before summer vacation. I got expelled for marijuana brownies (possession + distribution, but honestly bullshit IMO).

I may be going to an alternative school, I may go to online school, or I may just have to move down to Miami and study there for about a year because I'll be able to come back my Senior year. I'm hoping for online school, even though I know it'll be hard to keep up with it, but the alternative school they recommended me to is complete shit, and I have inertia so I don't want to move to Miami and restart all over again since I just got back to FL last year.

And as you probably know, I'm also a stoner. My mom obviously knows, she's caught me 3 times including the time they called her about the marijuana brownies at school. But after getting caught with the brownies, she asked if I was capable of quitting and I told her yeah, but I still have yet to do that.

And ever since I was about 6 or 7, I've always been into computers and technology. More so the software/internet/website side of things though, not the hardware and whatnot. At 15, I started taking up HTML/CSS (languages to create websites for those who don't know). After a little bit of experience, I started earning money through my knowledge with that, along with my vast knowledge on forum softwares. I'm extremely glad I did that at a relatively early age, it has become very useful ever since. My mom is even proud of me for doing something I love and is always happy when I tell her I'm working on a client project (I've explained to her what I do and that's how I buy my things online).

But, I also fear of not being able to live up to my potential. I'm an extremely bright person, I'm just also extremely lazy and the drugs, expulsion, and all this other shit that's going on right now don't exactly help my situation. I'm scared that everyone else will be able to get a job, and I'll be stuck back living with my dad and grandma (who's been sick on & off for the past year) back in Brazil, which is the last place I want to end up. I have no future there at all, but I do have a future where I currently live. I just keep fucking up any of my possible chances to make it better.

Learn from your mistakes, and also learn from others mistakes. Do better in school. It sucks, honestly it does, but if you plan on living a decent life anytime soon, it's what you'll need to do.

Best of luck to you, man. You'll need it.
 

Thank you man, and yeah our situations are pretty similar actually haha! If we work hard, we'll get somewhere in life man, I support you all the way.

@"Trap" @"Sanctuary" @"Glitter Milk"

My principle stated over e-mail that it is possible for me to go back to the High School, however, I'll need to make up tons of credits in order to graduate with my class and what not. I'm going to meet him over lunch tomorrow to talk about it.
 


Fantastic news, bro! Great to see you showing initiative. Your principal see's it & I bet your parents will soon too. Good for you.
 


Sounds like great news man! Happy to see you taking initiative in this and going through with it.
Classes will be hard to deal with, but you'll be able to manage. Take some online courses during summer since you'll have a lot of free time to do so, it'll speed up the process a lot.
 
@"Trap" @"Sanctuary" @"Glitter Milk"

- So, I have just officially enrolled in the Careerline Tech Center where I joined the PC and Network Tech classes!
 
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