Michael's Support Desk
INTRODUCTION
Hey, guys. This thread was created because I feel as if there are so many members that are having problems in real life or online at this very moment, and they're not speaking up. I would know because that is basically describing me, and if that's happening to me, it's happening to others who don't deserve it. This thread won't contain any hotlines, this thread won't contain any support websites, just personal advice from me and other members of ForumKorner. You can choose to post what's wrong and let me and a bunch of others try to help you, or you can contact me privately and I, to the best of my ability will assist you.
BIO
Most of you know me as Michael, or Mike. I'm a 15 year old male who lives in Australia. I know that I will be judged for my age, but I want you to know that I've been through what you've been through. I go to high school, I am in grade 10 and one of the leaders for the school. I have a few close friends and beside that, I am bullied all day every day. During classes, I'd get papers thrown at me with death threats, I'd get people teasing me and judging me, I'd get all my books thrown in a bin, hell I was even thrown in a bin once. I then posted my problems right here, just like you've been contemplating. I was told to stick up for myself and that's exactly what I did. I promised myself the next time I was bullied by any one, I would physically harm them. I know violence isn't the answer to anything, but this helped.
I was sitting in class, and I was quietly writing down notes for the next exam whilst listening to my favourite music. One of the bullies took my notes, ripped them up, then took the phone from my table and threw it across the room and it shattered. I got up and all I did was punch him as hard as I possibly could in the face. I'm no fighter, I don't know any techniques, I am not strong at all and when that happened that's when it was all over. Well, not entirely I'm still bullied here and there but I do stick up for myself without violence of course. It turns out I broke the kids jaw and they decided not to press charges as I have proof of him bullying me. He doesn't fuck with me any more. This is just school, I live at home with my family that don't really mind my existence. On average, I'd speak a few words a day to maximum two of the 4 others in my family. I've been through:
I've also ran away more then 5 times, the longest I was gone for was 2 weeks, and I was living at a loading dock for a supermarket. They gave me food each time they closed and didn't entirely mind me. Now, I have also self harmed and I don't want to get in to detail with that, but it is possibly the second worse thing I've ever done. The worst? Having suicidal tendencies, attempting it and failing more then 9 times. I have all my hospital bracelets and discharge notes and I'll post them on this thread soon for validation. I want you all to know right now that suicide is absolutely not the way out. I've realized that there is so much more to this cruel life then being depressed. I suffer from:
I didn't even know having all of these at once was even possible, but hey I am living proof of utter negativity. What makes me feel positive about myself is helping others with their problems. It takes away mine because I get my mind off of my life, and pretend I am living someone else's and I always think what I could possibly do to help them physically or mentally. It was so hard for me to let out everything I felt inside to the internet, but hey I did it anyway because it was one of the best decisions of my life. I've met people here who have it far worse then me and the positivity we both gain from talking about it is so amazing. I want to thank you for reading this biography, and if you have any questions please feel free to ask.
I was sitting in class, and I was quietly writing down notes for the next exam whilst listening to my favourite music. One of the bullies took my notes, ripped them up, then took the phone from my table and threw it across the room and it shattered. I got up and all I did was punch him as hard as I possibly could in the face. I'm no fighter, I don't know any techniques, I am not strong at all and when that happened that's when it was all over. Well, not entirely I'm still bullied here and there but I do stick up for myself without violence of course. It turns out I broke the kids jaw and they decided not to press charges as I have proof of him bullying me. He doesn't fuck with me any more. This is just school, I live at home with my family that don't really mind my existence. On average, I'd speak a few words a day to maximum two of the 4 others in my family. I've been through:
- Neglect
- Being thrown/kicked out of home
- Abuse
- The list goes on
I've also ran away more then 5 times, the longest I was gone for was 2 weeks, and I was living at a loading dock for a supermarket. They gave me food each time they closed and didn't entirely mind me. Now, I have also self harmed and I don't want to get in to detail with that, but it is possibly the second worse thing I've ever done. The worst? Having suicidal tendencies, attempting it and failing more then 9 times. I have all my hospital bracelets and discharge notes and I'll post them on this thread soon for validation. I want you all to know right now that suicide is absolutely not the way out. I've realized that there is so much more to this cruel life then being depressed. I suffer from:
- Chronic Depression
- Paranoia
- Social Anxiety
- Bipolar
- Insomnia
- ODD
I didn't even know having all of these at once was even possible, but hey I am living proof of utter negativity. What makes me feel positive about myself is helping others with their problems. It takes away mine because I get my mind off of my life, and pretend I am living someone else's and I always think what I could possibly do to help them physically or mentally. It was so hard for me to let out everything I felt inside to the internet, but hey I did it anyway because it was one of the best decisions of my life. I've met people here who have it far worse then me and the positivity we both gain from talking about it is so amazing. I want to thank you for reading this biography, and if you have any questions please feel free to ask.
WHAT CAN I HELP WITH?
- Suicide contemplation, how to realize life is worth living
- Self harm and self hatred
- Neglect, friends or family
- Relationship problems, marriages, divorces and breakups/cheating
- Running away, leaving.
- How to stay positive during hardship
- Being bullied and singled out by people and/or "friends"
- Suffering from illnesses, such as depression and anxiety, etc
- Physical and mental well-being and safety
- Weight problems, anorexia/eating disorders
- Family problems, parents splitting up, etc
- Dealing with physical and mental pain
- Dealing with death
- Whatever else you can throw at me, I'll help!
It doesn't matter what it is, whether it be one of the above or none of them, I am always up for a chat with anything. It doesn't matter how major your problem is, I can promise you that we will find a solution that will help you and make you happy. I don't care if you jammed your pinky toe on the edge of a table, I will tell you how to deal with pain. I want you to know with every negative that there is a positive. Life is worth living and I learned that the hard way at such a young age. Look around you, yes, I'm talking to you. No one but you, the reader. I want you to look around wherever you are, whether it be a room, the kitchen, school, anywhere! Just look around you and think about how much more there is to life then that. Just look at your ceiling, if you're outside, look at the sky. Think of travelling the world or fulfilling your life passion. Think of your set goals and how you will achieve them. Go ahead, take a few minutes off of this thread and just be at one with your mind and just think of what there is to life then just these problems, return whenever.
Done? How beautiful was that. How beautiful was it picturing what you want most in life and how you can tackle every obstacle that comes along with it to reach what you want? There's more to life then our current vision boundaries, and I can promise you that as well. It's beautiful, what's really out there waiting for us. Even though I haven't found what I wanted yet, I know that I will and I tell myself that every single day. If you've made it through this whole thread and are currently reading, I honestly thank you so much because writing this has made feel mixed emotions. Let's get on to how you can contact me.
[align=left]CONTACT
I won't be able to respond to Skype or AIM messages regarding these issues because not everybody has a way to get on. If you're reading, you are able to privately message me and I can guarantee you can do so from your phone, tablet, etc. If you want others to help you, feel free to post in this thread or the life support forum but if you want to chat privately, you know how to private message me. Thank you.
