Little Life Story

So, it is November 20th. This is the date I watched my first girlfriend over cam kill herself with her father's hand gun. It's been a LONG time, since I was 16 when it happened, and I am going to be 23 soon enough.

It's hard to go through that, you know? The worst part is it was online. I met her over some chat site, so my parents never knew, her parents didn't know. It's pretty much my dark little secret. Though it was time to share it first with some strangers on the internet. See what happens with that, before I start to talk about it openly. (I've also lost my wife not that long ago, so it's a double whammy that way, but since it is this date, it's more towards my first GF.)

Was listening to this song for a bit, reminds me of the good times, bad times and most importantly, tells me how it is.

[video=youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBumgq5yVrA[/video]

I've had a rough life, sure. But I've tried to make it better. Those who died that I've known closely, I tried to live the life they would have wanted to live or wanted me to live. Just how it is, it's cruel but it is what it is. Just wanted to share it and thank you to anyone who reads this and at least acknowledges it.

It's amazing to see that you are pushing through times like these. I bet that you are much stronger having gone through the rough patches. Seriously, props to you. I've had some similar experiences, but nothing as heartbreaking as yours. I can't imagine myself making it through losing someone so close to me. That's amazing. It shows your true character.

Hey man, Life is like an arrow. It gets dragged back in the bow before it is shot forward.

I'm sorry about your losses. I've had to cope with similar. Stay strong man.
Much Love,
Galaxies

This seems like a lot to have gone through at such an early stage in your life. I'm glad to see that you have been able to persevere and stay positive through such rough bumps in the road. Props to you, man.

Wow. Just wow. That read was intensifying yet saddening all in the same time. I couldn't feel one emotion, it was like I was drawn to your words. I can't believe it; 4 years. It's been 4 years since your incident and I would firstly like to apologize for all wrong and negativity that is surrounding your life at the moment. It is brave of you too let this out to a bunch of strangers and it is extremely admiring and inspiring of how strong you are mentally and emotionally. I am sorry to hear about your girlfriend and wives death, they are hopefully in a better place at the moment with no suffering. Thank you for posting this, PM me if you need anything at all.

Thank you everyone for the kind support. It hasn't been easy, but I have made due of what I got and what I've done in my life. It's certainly a roller coaster and it has it's ups and downs.