I've lied a lot and now it came in to play with my relationships with very close people to me, including my good friend @gunnar
I have lost them both and I'm over my head now and I have no idea what to do, I can't loose my girlfriend, shes means the entire world to me plus everything in society. And Gunnar, helped me through a lot of shit, and now this, I know I deserve this but I can't just let them go, neither can they, it just doesn't seem right, the connection of feelings with us, you just don't get what me and her had, and I lied and ruined it, and I just don't know what to do, and I honestly have no one to go to, so please, could any help me get the love of my life back, and a true genuine friend back, I've tried talking to them both, confronting what I've done, and i'm still currently working on fixing every little thing and lie of said, and to all of the people on FK who know me by my name Mack, its not really Mack, its Joel.