Fuck up.

I'm such a fuck up honestly, ever since I was like 12, I always was intrigued by computers, and I always seemed to fuck up and break them somehow, either hard ware or software I just always fuck it up, and my trust with my parents, especially my dad has always been low, and it's my fault, and just earlier today you may have saw my thread, that I broke the processor on my dad's computer he built. His hard earned cash into that thing, and I destroyed it just like that, I overclocked it too much and fried it. And then I couldn't leave it like that, noo I had to fuck it up more by removing the processor and trying to reseat it into the socket, bending numerous pins because I couldn't see exactly where I was putting the processor since the heatsink and fan were still attached.

I know the internet isn't where I should post these kind of things but honestly guys, I dont know what to do, all the trust I've slowly been building up between me and my dad just pooped right out the window in a matter of hours.

Most of you will be like "It's just a computer, not the end of the world." But for me it is...losing all my dad's trust is the end of the world for me. I can never get it back....

I've never been the depressed kind of person, and I've never self harmed or anything like that but I'm afraid to do something pretty drastic...not suicide or anything but...Fuck I don't know what to do, my whole life has been a fuck up and I'm only 16.

If you don't have the attention span to read this whole thing then please don't even bother trying to troll me, honestly I'm not in a very stable situation.

Please help guys, any ideas, support?

- Your lovely Ironhide.

I'm being serious but have you tried weed, it really helps.

Shift said:

I'm being serious but have you tried weed, it really helps.

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I am a pot smoker, but I've been poor, but honestly I don't think any kind of drug will make emotional pain go away.

Ironhide ϟϟ said:

I am a pot smoker, but I've been poor, but honestly I don't think any kind of drug will make emotional pain go away.

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Trust me there are alot of drugs that make emotional pain go away

Shift said:

Trust me there are alot of drugs that make emotional pain go away

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None that I can afford/get. Haha

Ironhide ϟϟ said:

None that I can afford/get. Haha

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Actually there are, I should stop being such a bad influence lol

Shift said:

Actually there are, I should stop being such a bad influence lol

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Lol It's all good, thank you for the replies though man.

Lots of cheap drugs. Have you tried huffing keyboard cleaner? Also, your dad's trust CAN come back if you let it.

Trick said:

Lots of cheap drugs. Have you tried huffing keyboard cleaner? Also, your dad's trust CAN come back if you let it.

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Eww... thats nasty,

OP try to get a job and help your fix his computer.

So your a fuck up. But who's going to change that? You. Go to school, get them good grades, get you the best money making job you can, or follow whatever other dreams you have, and repay your father. That's what I plan to do, I want to repay my parents for giving me the best life possible. Be happy that your Dad lets you use his computer. It's cause he loves you. You may be in a bad situation now, but things will change.

No offense to the other user, but drugs aren't the way to go. Even if it is weed, and to be truthful you don't sound like a fuck up to me. I've always broken electronics growing up, and tried to fixed them because they were interesting to me. See, that's creativity right there. It's not being a fuck up. To learn how something works, it may involve breaking it. A failure isn't bad to me at all, it's just a way of life telling you don't do it that way. Believe me, learn from your mistakes and you can make good out of this. Personally I fucked up 4 computers growing up, and now I'm an employee under Best Buy and I work in multiple departments (I'm not a manager or anything), and I'm in college. Although half the people don't know what they're talking about, it's a step. Embrace the fact that you may have to make mistakes first before you can become knowledgeable. Otherwise you will be holding yourself back tremendously. I'll reply to this tommorow as I've got papers to write, but update me and tell me what is going on tommorow. Night, and good luck hopefully you take my advice and figure out that you're pretty damn smart.

Bubba said:

No offense to the other user, but drugs aren't the way to go. Even if it is weed, and to be truthful you don't sound like a fuck up to me. I've always broken electronics growing up, and tried to fixed them because they were interesting to me. See, that's creativity right there. It's not being a fuck up. To learn how something works, it may involve breaking it. A failure isn't bad to me at all, it's just a way of life telling you don't do it that way. Believe me, learn from your mistakes and you can make good out of this. Personally I fucked up 4 computers growing up, and now I'm an employee under Best Buy and I work in multiple departments (I'm not a manager or anything), and I'm in college. Although half the people don't know what they're talking about, it's a step. Embrace the fact that you may have to make mistakes first before you can become knowledgeable. Otherwise you will be holding yourself back tremendously. I'll reply to this tommorow as I've got papers to write, but update me and tell me what is going on tommorow. Night, and good luck hopefully you take my advice and figure out that you're pretty damn smart.

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Thank you so much man, I will definitely update you!