I've been in pain in a very long time. Before marrying my husband, I had a boyfriend who was my church mate and was my first boyfriend. He wasn't so nice physically but I could say that he was the most kind and sweet ex-boyfriend that i had (regardless my husband). It took me 5 years to recover. I was really in pain and wasn't able to accept the reality of being away from him. We didn't had time to talk about the break up. I pursued to bring back everything about us.
There was a time that when we were in a camp, i was able to talk with a friend who came to be our church mate as well. I had a chance to know everything between me and my ex-boyfriend. I found out that one of my friend fell in love with him when i was studying and living away from the city. My world was kinda in bleed. I didn't know what to do that time, I was in shock and didn't notice the tears falling and I was breathing painfully. It was a dramatic night. Til that time, i told myself that i had to study harder and finish my studies.
Days were really slow, years were really sad. I didn't know why I was in pain for a long period of time. I was really in love with that man- until I accept the fact that the broken mirror must be thrown away and give a chance for another mirror to reflect myself for a change. Too many things happened. Too many reasons that cannot be explained. But now i know, God didn't let us be together again because He wants to give me another man who will really love me and will be my BEST achievement. God knows my life, and his plan was successful. I finished my college, and now married with an Italian who became my half and my life.
Do you have things like this? One thing is for sure, If someone says, "No, we're done" stop and stare at him and ask him gently this, "Are you sure?", If he stops and didn't say anything, you still have chance to fix it. But when he says, "Yes, we're done" Smile at him and say.. "oh!, that's fine then. God knows the BEST man for me, and probably that's not you.. Keep safe, be sure that you're gonna get someone better than me".
Love is in the air, don't cry for someone who doesn't deserve it. ^_^
There was a time that when we were in a camp, i was able to talk with a friend who came to be our church mate as well. I had a chance to know everything between me and my ex-boyfriend. I found out that one of my friend fell in love with him when i was studying and living away from the city. My world was kinda in bleed. I didn't know what to do that time, I was in shock and didn't notice the tears falling and I was breathing painfully. It was a dramatic night. Til that time, i told myself that i had to study harder and finish my studies.
Days were really slow, years were really sad. I didn't know why I was in pain for a long period of time. I was really in love with that man- until I accept the fact that the broken mirror must be thrown away and give a chance for another mirror to reflect myself for a change. Too many things happened. Too many reasons that cannot be explained. But now i know, God didn't let us be together again because He wants to give me another man who will really love me and will be my BEST achievement. God knows my life, and his plan was successful. I finished my college, and now married with an Italian who became my half and my life.
Do you have things like this? One thing is for sure, If someone says, "No, we're done" stop and stare at him and ask him gently this, "Are you sure?", If he stops and didn't say anything, you still have chance to fix it. But when he says, "Yes, we're done" Smile at him and say.. "oh!, that's fine then. God knows the BEST man for me, and probably that's not you.. Keep safe, be sure that you're gonna get someone better than me".
Love is in the air, don't cry for someone who doesn't deserve it. ^_^
