Background: I go to a private high school in San Francisco where good grades are key and very stressed. I have never been an excellent student, I'm really slow at completing assignments, and sometimes I rush. However, I always work to my full extent.
Recently, I have been receiving emails from all of my teachers about how my performance is unsatisfactory. Every time tests are handed back, the plentiful overachievers yelp about their 89%, while I am there with a 70% and ask what I got. It has come to a point where I lie and say I got a better grad than I did. I study very hard for tests and never cheat. My friends who cheated on the most recent test got a 96% while I got a 72%. And I guarantee I know the subject greater than they. I have had my free block restricted and now sit in my adviser's office doing secluded work. Several of the faculty at my school recommended me to get evaluated for a learning difference. My parents keep forcing that I have a learning difference. They have hired several tutors. I have so many positive dreams for the future and an intelligent outlook. I meet with every teacher during my free time where as some students never meet with them and get twice the grades I do. I am surrounded by people who are convinced I slack and I don't study. I feel like I am the only one who has faith in myself. But this feeling is starting to degrade in itself. All this hard work and I have nothing to show for it. It is very dis-encouraging.
I am desperate for some advice and consultation. I want to stop resenting school and my teachers. I feel like this time in my life is a video and I just (more than anything) want to scrub over it.
Recently, I have been receiving emails from all of my teachers about how my performance is unsatisfactory. Every time tests are handed back, the plentiful overachievers yelp about their 89%, while I am there with a 70% and ask what I got. It has come to a point where I lie and say I got a better grad than I did. I study very hard for tests and never cheat. My friends who cheated on the most recent test got a 96% while I got a 72%. And I guarantee I know the subject greater than they. I have had my free block restricted and now sit in my adviser's office doing secluded work. Several of the faculty at my school recommended me to get evaluated for a learning difference. My parents keep forcing that I have a learning difference. They have hired several tutors. I have so many positive dreams for the future and an intelligent outlook. I meet with every teacher during my free time where as some students never meet with them and get twice the grades I do. I am surrounded by people who are convinced I slack and I don't study. I feel like I am the only one who has faith in myself. But this feeling is starting to degrade in itself. All this hard work and I have nothing to show for it. It is very dis-encouraging.
I am desperate for some advice and consultation. I want to stop resenting school and my teachers. I feel like this time in my life is a video and I just (more than anything) want to scrub over it.