You've probably heard this in movies before and such and haven't thought much of it, probably thought it was a nice quote to make a movie more bad ass, but there is such an addiction.
I'm addicted to a life of crime
"As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to be a gangster." - Henry Hill
This thread is for aid and opinions of my future.
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My thoughts revolve around crime. By crime, I don't mean rape, gang bang, drugs, or anything that drastic, but around money. I'm tied to organized crime, not those street hoodlums you see robbing a 7-Eleven, I'm not tattoo'd from head to toe like the faggot rappers of nowadays, or any of that stereotypical shit. More like a typical Italian mobster. All movements are planned and executed correctly. I have never been convicted, been caught several times, but have won all the court cases, and some didn't even go to court due to lack of evidence. The way I see it is:
"Crime pays if you're nice with yours" - Big Pun
I can get a job, but I don't find pleasure in working at a set schedule at a set salary and shit like that. I have graudated from High School, school just does not appeal to me, I'm not Straight F, I can maintain a 2.0 - 3.0 GPA by trying half-ass, but I can't put effort into anymore because it just does not appeal to me. I am continuing onto college just to keep my parents off my back, but I feel like I'll always be tied to criminal thoughts. Everytime the conversation of money comes to my mind, it's tied to crime. If any form of making money comes to my mind or up in a conversation, my mind slowly travels into criminal thoughts. Please get a few things straight once again before posting:
I don't gang-bang
I don't do gun-point robbery
I don't rape
I don't do drugs in any form (use, sell, buy)
I am in my late teenage years and I'm well off for someone my age, I can flaunt jewelry people my age usually can't, I can flaunt my car people my age usually can't unless they work at Starbucks or something and even then, it's not comparable to my car, I get respect around people in my town when I'm around the streets speaking with others that people my age usually don't because of the way I carry myself and dress myself, etc. I'm not stating all this to show off, but to show you how tied and dedicated I am mentally.
Basically, as much as a man thinks of sex every 7 seconds, I think of sex too, but crime as well. My mind is never at ease, I'm always paranoid for the quickest cash income or paranoid because there's always business to be dealt with (cops, loud mouths, etc)
The point of this thread is...
I fear for my future because even if I am to become a legitimate businessman or person later on in life....I'm almost certain at this age that I will associate crime into my life even if it's not needed, just because it's my nicotine that most people get from cigarettes, I get from crime.
My question, in a more narrow sense...
Should I be worried about this behavior/habit I've built? What should I fear in the future? What's a fix for this if I ever decide I need to move on?
I'm addicted to a life of crime
"As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to be a gangster." - Henry Hill
This thread is for aid and opinions of my future.
.
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My thoughts revolve around crime. By crime, I don't mean rape, gang bang, drugs, or anything that drastic, but around money. I'm tied to organized crime, not those street hoodlums you see robbing a 7-Eleven, I'm not tattoo'd from head to toe like the faggot rappers of nowadays, or any of that stereotypical shit. More like a typical Italian mobster. All movements are planned and executed correctly. I have never been convicted, been caught several times, but have won all the court cases, and some didn't even go to court due to lack of evidence. The way I see it is:
"Crime pays if you're nice with yours" - Big Pun
I can get a job, but I don't find pleasure in working at a set schedule at a set salary and shit like that. I have graudated from High School, school just does not appeal to me, I'm not Straight F, I can maintain a 2.0 - 3.0 GPA by trying half-ass, but I can't put effort into anymore because it just does not appeal to me. I am continuing onto college just to keep my parents off my back, but I feel like I'll always be tied to criminal thoughts. Everytime the conversation of money comes to my mind, it's tied to crime. If any form of making money comes to my mind or up in a conversation, my mind slowly travels into criminal thoughts. Please get a few things straight once again before posting:
I don't gang-bang
I don't do gun-point robbery
I don't rape
I don't do drugs in any form (use, sell, buy)
I am in my late teenage years and I'm well off for someone my age, I can flaunt jewelry people my age usually can't, I can flaunt my car people my age usually can't unless they work at Starbucks or something and even then, it's not comparable to my car, I get respect around people in my town when I'm around the streets speaking with others that people my age usually don't because of the way I carry myself and dress myself, etc. I'm not stating all this to show off, but to show you how tied and dedicated I am mentally.
Basically, as much as a man thinks of sex every 7 seconds, I think of sex too, but crime as well. My mind is never at ease, I'm always paranoid for the quickest cash income or paranoid because there's always business to be dealt with (cops, loud mouths, etc)
The point of this thread is...
I fear for my future because even if I am to become a legitimate businessman or person later on in life....I'm almost certain at this age that I will associate crime into my life even if it's not needed, just because it's my nicotine that most people get from cigarettes, I get from crime.
My question, in a more narrow sense...
Should I be worried about this behavior/habit I've built? What should I fear in the future? What's a fix for this if I ever decide I need to move on?